Sunday, November 28, 1999

Having real time web logs on my monitor is a blessing and a curse. I can see when people are at my sites. This is very cool. It can also become frustrating. There are a bunch of people who I recognize. But I see many people coming here regularly and I don't know who they are. If you're here, please, drop me a note and say "hi". It's nice to hear from people who like to come and hear from me. Thanks.

An interesting note, and challenge for you, is that my mail reader actually reads to me your name and subject upon receiving your email. So, assuming I'm within range of my speakers when you send it... be creative! 11/28/1999 09:21:59 PM .:. | Discuss

A week ago, I mentioned that I had two potential design opportunities in my future. I suppose, I can now announce to you that one has come through. The other has the potential to come to fruition very soon as I interview tomorrow. Anyway, I am now the graphic designer for the upcoming London concert production of Sweeney Todd, which should see me in London in February. You'll be hearing more about this soon, no doubt.

The Bradlands bestowed upon me the newly-minted-awarded-infrequently-not-really-an-award award for the best weblog/journal name." Thanks Brad.

And finally... Julie and I didn't really talk much, if any, this week about where our relationship stands. I saw her for an hour and a half on Tuesday and just an hour today. But we talked this evening, now that she's back at school, and I guess you could say that we're in "limbo" at this point. What the future holds is unknown but we both know that things seem to have their way of working out in the end. Now that we've talked I'm feeling better. And though, at this point I'm moving on, she hasn't left my heart. I'm lucky to have her... 11/28/1999 08:56:06 PM .:. | Discuss

I'm back from breakfast. I don't think I've ever found myself getting as lost staring into her beautiful brown eyes. I don't think I've ever been so sad doing so, either. 11/28/1999 09:48:54 AM .:. | Discuss

Saturday, November 27, 1999

My emotions over the past few days seem to have been all over the map. At one point in time I'm content and doing fine and then all of the sudden I feel just the opposite.

I was feeling less than wonderful up until the moment when I found Boxlor. Click on the first few photos and you'll see what I mean.

I'm going out to breakfast with Jules in the morning. Why do I find myself close to tears when I type that? She goes back to school tomorrow afternoon.

I think I need to go visit the Boxlor site some more, I guess.

It's 11:11. Make a wish... 11/27/1999 11:12:38 PM .:. | Discuss

Friday, November 26, 1999

I believe I've linked to this site in the past few days but I don't believe I've linked to this story. 11/26/1999 11:58:34 PM .:. | Discuss

Thursday, November 25, 1999

Why is it harder for men to be platonic friends? 11/25/1999 10:01:05 PM .:. | Discuss

I like this story. 11/25/1999 02:09:52 PM .:. | Discuss

Happy Thanksgiving.

I'm hanging in... 11/25/1999 12:11:33 PM .:. | Discuss

Wednesday, November 24, 1999

Cool! Recent San Jose State grad and friend opens in Play On! tonight. I directed her in The Threepenny Opera not long ago. Break a leg, Izetta! 11/24/1999 12:53:31 PM .:. | Discuss

Tuesday, November 23, 1999

I saw Julie tonight. She's back up for the holiday. I always feel so much better after seeing her. Talking with her. I dunno.

Everything's different
Nothing's changed
Only maybe slightly rearranged
You're sorry-grateful, regretful-happy
Why look for answers where none occur
You always are what you always were
Which has nothing to do with
All to do with her... 11/23/1999 11:27:50 PM
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I thought I loved monkeys (see earlier post) but now they've simply gone too far. 11/23/1999 10:53:40 AM .:. | Discuss

Monday, November 22, 1999

Never accuse me of spending too much time on the net. 11/22/1999 09:48:37 PM .:. | Discuss

You might have heard about the Gary Coleman Web-a-Thon. I'm considering starting my own for extra cash...

11/22/1999 09:09:09 PM .:. | Discuss

Thanks to Jessica, self proclaimed goddess, for kicking me in the butt and helping me move on. 11/22/1999 02:57:40 PM .:. | Discuss

Sites to check out: Oscar Prediction Charts, writings... 11/22/1999 02:42:31 PM .:. | Discuss

Things that make you go hmmmm... 11/22/1999 08:55:02 AM .:. | Discuss

Sunday, November 21, 1999

You know something's wrong when a few tears well up at the end of a really bad made for tv Y2K movie. 11/21/1999 10:58:23 PM .:. | Discuss

My happiness rating right now must be about a 2 on a scale of 1-10. Please remind me of this when one day it's back to 11. I know I've said before that moments like this are worth it when you figure in the happiness relationships bring when they're great. But then there are times like this when I begin to wonder. I want that 11 back real bad. 11/21/1999 03:26:08 PM .:. | Discuss

Audio dejavu brought to you by Bell Labs. 11/21/1999 02:00:25 PM .:. | Discuss

Saturday, November 20, 1999

Well I'm back. I'm full and had a good time. But now that I'm back "everything" is getting to me again. In a conversation I had with someone yesterday the following words, conceivably, originated from me, "Learning is hard. If it were easier it wouldn't be as rewarding." Ironic that these words came from me. 11/20/1999 10:18:17 PM .:. | Discuss

It appears there is currently a live audio/video feed of the Turkeyfest mentioned earlier. I suppose this means if you have nothing better to do with your day you could watch for me. 11/20/1999 11:37:44 AM .:. | Discuss

I found myself at deja searching for a story I sent out to a few friends about five years ago. To make a long story uninteresting: Many of you who have known me at least this long will remember "The Monkey Story" that I used to tell. I received a copy of this monkey story, not long after first sending it, from someone who had no idea that I was the one who sent said story out in the first place. Not long after this, it was obvious that the story had propogated itself around the world and was soon a hit body of text to forward to friends. I smile a proud smile every time I received it. So today when I searched for newsgroup postings of the story I was amused to see that it was still in popular circulation. Just two weeks ago it was posted to a Backstreet Boys discussion group. I'm glad to see this work in such a distinguished forum. It's slightly bothersome to see how the story has become modified here and there. Why does this bother me? Oh well. I like monkeys. 11/20/1999 09:21:32 AM .:. | Discuss

Today is the Turkeyfest day and because of this I will be making my way into a grey and gloomy San Francisco for way too much turkey on a Saturday afternoon/evening. Can you find the turkey? 11/20/1999 09:04:04 AM .:. | Discuss

Friday, November 19, 1999

When it rains it pours, they say. In this case, it's poured both good and bad news my way over the past two days. Somehow, though, the bad news has influenced my feelings lately even more than the good. All I can say is it's a good thing for ad agencies and London producers, both displaying excellent taste in graphic designers. If it weren't for them I'd be headed even further down a steep roller coaster drop. Someone please let me know when this ride's heading back up... 11/19/1999 11:06:03 PM .:. | Discuss

In other relationship news, I'm not sure exactly where my most important relationship stands at this point. Though it "started out like a song" we're at that stage where we're trying to find out the "want me more than others - not exclusively" lyrics. Speaking soley for myself, all I can say is, "I'm ready. I'm ready now." And that's what hurts. 11/19/1999 10:58:29 PM .:. | Discuss

Relationships can come in and out of our lives so suddenly. My friend Ed Margulies died this week. How ironic is it that this happened the same month the subscription to Movieline Magazine that he got for me ends? I know he would have an oh so witty retort for that one. I never had the opportunity to meet him in person but got to know him well online and it hurts to know I won't be getting any more thoughtful, and always hillarious emails from him. Sparkle on... 11/19/1999 10:41:24 PM .:. | Discuss

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